Honesty?

What is honesty? To be free of deceit and untruthfulness. Does anyone sincerely know what it is, to be honest? Does anyone even feel honest? I know I don’t. When being honest with yourself, do you find yourself lying to others? Or do you lie to both? I’ve discovered when I do it’s only to you. I always know my truth even if it’s never said aloud. Is it to make you or me feel better, and that I don’t know. One day I will, and then maybe I’ll lie to us both.